Day 41

Day 41

                Ha! I went for a run this morning again and did amazing! I was so worried that it would be soooo hard like yesterday and Friday, but it wasn’t. I ran it and at the end I actually felt… good, like I could run some more. I want to get to the point though, that I feel empty again. After yesterday, I just feel so awful. I can’t believe I ate all that food. All that unhealthy food… However, yesterday is in the past. I ran hard last night to punish myself. Today my plan is to eat nothing. I go to my dad’s today so getting away from lunch and dinner is a piece of cake because of school. Going to dad’s makes it easy for me to fast too because all I have to do is tell my mom that I’m eating at dad’s and tell dad that I’m eating at mom’s. All I have to do is stay strong. I was doing so well too. Maybe I’ve gotten so weak because of the way things changed…

                I met this guy at a get together with some friends and we kind of hit it off I guess. I mean, I really liked him and I know he really liked me but we really didn't start to know each other that well until we started texting. Now, usually I am not all for text relationships, but he lives pretty far away. Well, we texted for a week and then he ended up going to jail. (Don’t judge, please.) I miss him so much. He’s been gone for almost a month now. He has five more to go though. He wanted me to wait for him to get out, which, honestly, isn’t that hard for three reasons.

1.       I have school to keep me busy

2.       It gives me more time to lose weight for when he gets back

3.       I might be starting an acting career soon so I’ll be pretty busy

I’ll tell you more about the acting career later. Right now, I have to go to school lol so I’ll talk to you later:] stay strong! :]

Btw, heres some thinspo for u guys!

my goal!