Let's Start Again

Day 1
  
   Here we go all over again. Thankfully, since I'm out of my mom's house, this will be much easier.

      Today:
          Breakfast: nothing- 0 cals
          Lunch: monster absolute zero- 0 cals
          Dinner: nothing- 0 cals

   I figure this is a good way to start my new beginning. I like the monster absolute zeros because it has zero calories and zero sugars. Now, I wouldn't want to drink this when im in like day two or three of my fast tho. I only say this because any kind of energy drink has a ton of caffeine. Now, correct me if I'm wrong, but if I'm not consuming food, then my body isn't getting calories to burn of for energy, so its forced to burn fat (or energy storage). I don't think it'd be good on my heart or body for that matter, to pump it full of a sudden burst of an incredible amount of energy all of a sudden. idk. maybe I'm wrong. If I am, please, someone let me know. Maybe it would be okay to buy one can and then slowly sip it throughout the day for a steady flow of energy when you're feeling completely depleted. It might give you enough of a kick to get going. I think ill try that. I'll let you guys know how it works.
 
   Anyways, enough of that. my plan is to eat the smallest amount of calories possible every day. Zero is the goal, but when i do eat, i will never eat more than 500 calories. i only have about one month to get to my goal weight so this is crunch time. haha, literally, i should probably do some crunches.  so wish me luck!! Love ya'll! stay strong! we're all in this together!

holy shit i fixed my blogger!!

DAMN BLOGGER!

       I cant believe it. almost what? a year?! I was unable to access my blog for a freakin year! Its amazing how far technology has come. yet, it can still royally fuck up.
     
      okay, enough of that evil rant. im good now.
    
                 how about an update?

       Name: Kristen
       age: 17
       height: 5'4"
       weight: 130 lbs
       goal weight: 105 lbs

   so yeah. I gained some weight, but managed to keep it at least at a steady. I didn't put on too much for me to handle. its amazing how much blogging really does help with sticking to the ana way of life. I was so desperate to get mine back that Ive been on the computer now for nearly four hours trying to hack back into my account. needless to say, my hard work has obviously paid off. so I guess that would be the advice of the day. if you really want a good ana tip, get a blog or read other peoples blogs. it really does help. a whole lot!

   so hows come im not 110 lbs right now? because I am a weak, sorry excuse for a woman. really. Women are stronger than we think. Our biggest mistakes happen when we underestimate ourselves. We second guess ourselves and drown ourselves in doubt. that's exactly what I did. I have been back and forth on this for a year now. fasting... fasting... binge... give up... fast... binge... give up again... the only time I really tried was when I had a blog. (ergo, the reason for my desperation.) idk. maybe its the sense of accountability. yeah. I think that's it. anyways, im starting over today. I decided to a few days ago, but today im making it official. thank God. I'm actually really tired tonight tho. its 3:02 am out here and I need to get to bed. tomorrow, probably first thing in the morning, I will put on another blog with more of an update and my plan. im thinking of starting with a fast. maybe two or three days to start. is that a bad idea?
                             anyways. love u guys!! missed you like freakin crazy!!
                                                          stay strong <3


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