DAMN BLOGGER!
I cant believe it. almost what? a year?! I was unable to access my blog for a freakin year! Its amazing how far technology has come. yet, it can still royally fuck up.
okay, enough of that evil rant. im good now.
how about an update?
Name: Kristen
age: 17
height: 5'4"
weight: 130 lbs
goal weight: 105 lbs
so yeah. I gained some weight, but managed to keep it at least at a steady. I didn't put on too much for me to handle. its amazing how much blogging really does help with sticking to the ana way of life. I was so desperate to get mine back that Ive been on the computer now for nearly four hours trying to hack back into my account. needless to say, my hard work has obviously paid off. so I guess that would be the advice of the day. if you really want a good ana tip, get a blog or read other peoples blogs. it really does help. a whole lot!
so hows come im not 110 lbs right now? because I am a weak, sorry excuse for a woman. really. Women are stronger than we think. Our biggest mistakes happen when we underestimate ourselves. We second guess ourselves and drown ourselves in doubt. that's exactly what I did. I have been back and forth on this for a year now. fasting... fasting... binge... give up... fast... binge... give up again... the only time I really tried was when I had a blog. (ergo, the reason for my desperation.) idk. maybe its the sense of accountability. yeah. I think that's it. anyways, im starting over today. I decided to a few days ago, but today im making it official. thank God. I'm actually really tired tonight tho. its 3:02 am out here and I need to get to bed. tomorrow, probably first thing in the morning, I will put on another blog with more of an update and my plan. im thinking of starting with a fast. maybe two or three days to start. is that a bad idea?
anyways. love u guys!! missed you like freakin crazy!!
stay strong <3
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