Day 18

Today I have fasted all day, until dinner time. I have to eat lasagna (400) and garlic bread (180) yuck. That is only one serving. I absolutely love lasagna so it will be really hard not to binge. I have a plan though. In order to avoid disaster, I have to make a plan and force myself to follow through, even if my mouth, tongue, and stomach, don't want to agree. I am in control, not my body.  Tonight I will consume a block of lasagna and a piece of garlic bread (580). I will NOT eat ANYTHING else. Then, since I am going to my dad’s house, I will fast all weekend. I will prepare for this weekend by going online and finding out which Chinese foods have the lowest calorie counts because we almost always go out to Chinese. I will not eat any meat. I will drink only water. I won’t even actually eat. I will chop up my food really tiny, push it around my plate, chew the tiny bites a little tiny bit at a time, and will claim that I am full. If we do not eat out, I will dump the food in the trash. On Sunday, if we have a Sunday meal, I will do the same thing as at the Chinese restaurant. I will be strong. I will also keep up on everything this weekend since I will be at my dad’s. When I’m not at my dad’s I don't have the internet so I can’t update my blog. I’m sorry sistersL

Oh yeah and before I go fork down nasty food (of which I absolutely hate!) I have to tell you If I stayed strong or not. I’m sorry I couldn't update yesterday’s success but I had to go to bed, my mom was mad. I was absolutely successful. My calorie count for the day was 1. Yes, 1. Now I weigh 133.6lbs! 3 more pounds and I will finally have reached goal number four! I have to go now, ill report more later on tonight. STAY STRONG GIRLS!