Later Day 45

                I hate it when I’m bored, I caught myself walking into the kitchen. I didn’t even realize what I was doing until I I was holding  a gallon of chocolate milk in my hand with the fridge door hanging wide open. I was all like “wooooooooaaaaahhhhh! Nooooooo!” I put it back and then jumped on this thing. I swear, boredom is my worst enemy. The bad thing is, I already ate today. (against my will, but still, I ate.) I shouldn’t be hungry. My tummy shrunk:) so usually, when I eat, after about an hour, I feel normal. I really don’t like to feel normal, id rather be empty but hey, I can’t complain, at least it wasn't a binge right? *sigh… I’m kind of rambling so if you don't want to read this post, that’s cool. But I have some awesomefulwonderfulbeautifulhalarious news! This girl, who absolutely despises me, acknowleged that I was losing weight:) she hates my guts. But that's okay, because I’m not particularly fond her either. She was talking to my brother I guess, and asked him if I was losing weight. Kyran, my brother, said yes, that I was doing really good and was looking great (i luv my bubby:) sometimes) then she was all like “well shes just doing it to get boys attention and she’s such a bitch and blah blah blah…”  she’s jealous! Oh yeah! Stick that in your juice box and SUCK it Raquel! Haha! I’m so mean sometimes >:] muahahaha! I prefer to call it feisty.  

                Speaking of my brothers, did u guys know that I have eight of them?? yup yup, I do. Two of them are younger than me and they annoy the living crap out of me. I swear sometimes they make me want to punch myself in the face. Or cripple an orphan. Punch a baby. Ugh. Yeah, they’re that bad! I swear! They just uuuuuuuuuuuuuugh! Anywaaaaaaaaaaays, I also have a sister, but I havn’t seen her since I was…. Like 5 I think? I wonder how shes doing and what she looks like. I wonder if she looks like me… leme see… Well, im bored still. I’m writing a song. Maybe sometime soon, I can upload the vid of me singing it. I still have a few things I want to change about it though. Sorry, that’s the ocd kicking in. all my songs and poems and writing and just everything has to be perfect. (that's ironic considering that I am the most imperfect person you will ever meet!) Actually that's a good idea! Omg Kristen you are a genius sometimes I swear! (u aren’t the best speller but u hav ur moments) I am going to finish it and then ima attempt to record it. if my voice will work with me, ill upload it!:) luv  u guys! Ill ttyl! Stay strong! So whatever it takes!